wow..its been forever since ive been on here anyho heres whats happened n the past month n a half...
hmmm where do i start...well ive lost 2 people recently in my life...my aunt she passed away a few days before i stoped writing in here and on the 7th of feb (2 days after lindsays aniv. of her passing away and the 6th being her 20th b day) jiddy my friend from up in pa passed away n a car accident...what hurt the most is that he wanted me to see him when i went there for x-mas vacation but i was only there for a day so i didnt stop to say hi to him or TO ANYONE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER..it hurts knowing that it would have been my last time seeing him but WHO WAS TO KNOW he was gonna pass away..so im sry u guys that i didnt hang out with u or go and see u especially to jiddy..i luv u and i will miss u so much i spent the last 2 hrs almost looking at ur page and crying and asking god y. i will miss u so much as well as everyone else who i have just lost. its funny now everytime one of my friends from up in pa calls, im scared to answer b/c im scared to get more bad news. i answer and just ask god to please not have anything going wrong up there...i really dont know if i can take another death rite now. i sit in my bed at nite and cry myself to sleep and wondering y god puts me through all this pain and suffering. i feel like im a lil stuffed animal of his that hes just slowly pulling the stuffing out of for fun and puts it back in for a little while and then tears it rite back out again.
also....
i was dating someone til i desided to fuck that all up by doing stupid shit i guess.. didnt help that i felt misserable about jiddy and i wasnt sleeping so i was just acting like a bitch. HA nothing like always blowing chances to try and make urself happy. i guess thats a part of my life tho i always like to fuck up my life as well as everyone elses. ohh well....
also i got a new best friend we have been best friends for a while now..were moving to wilmington together when we graduate this spring. I CANNOT WAIT! were going to wilmington all spring vacation gonna b a blast! <~~only good news :-/
we also won USA nationals for all-star cheerleading and the sweetheart classic..YAY for us...were not goign to the comp in raleigh this sat tho b/c we have no competitors. so were getting ready for america's best in Richmond, VA this comming april....its gonna b so exciting since onyx added onto ice for the sweetheart classic and for our last nationals....WE HAVE A 9 MAN FALL BACK PYRMID!! its so HAWT...anyho yeah...<~~~ this is good news 2 :-/
thats kinda the short story that has happened n my life for the past month and a half i havnt been on! but ill make sure for now on ill write in it everyday. have a good nite everyone. | 
i didnt really know what to thing about the whole situation except the fact that i MISSED THEM SO MUCH!! especially jason cause i havnt seen him for about 2 1/2 wks!! and i also stayed home from skool since austin was sick but the highlight of the day was being able to see those guys for a few hrs. they are comming back on sat YAY..lol...but i gotta go and get ready for skool now gosh..write more tonite 
...but im off got a lot of people to talk to and catch up on all the stuff im missing out n pa 
...HAVE A GOOD NITE